Minsan napapaisip na lang, eto ba ang gusto ko?
Nakakatawa tuwing maaalala,
Masakit noon, mas masakit ngayon,
Bakit nga ba masakit? Pabigat ng pabigat, hindi ko na ata kaya…
Paulit ulit, mga bagay na nakakasakit, hindi na ko nasanay
Iiyak ng iiyak, hanggang sipon ay tumulo at mapagod ang mata, makatulog ng pilit
Pag gising, kalahating oras ang nakalipas,
Masakit pa din po. Mabigat ang dibdib, ayan na naman ang luha
Idaan sa hikbi, mahihina ngunit malalim na buntong hininga
Hindi ko mapigilan ang mga luha
Andito ka pa ba?  Andito pa ba ako?
Anong nangyari? Alam ko naman ang sagot… ARAY!
Sana, ako lang ang nahihirapan
Sana, ako lang ang lumuluha sa pagtulog
Sana, ako lang ang nahihirapang huminga sa sobrang bigat ng dbdib
Sana, ako lang.. Ako na lang… Ayaw kitang masaktan, di bale ng ako na lang lahat
Sakin lang lahat ng sakit,
Mas masasaktan kasi ako na  malamang nasasaktan ka
Okay lang kung hindi
Katulad ng hindi mo alam kung gaano na ako kadurog
Durog na durog na po ang puso ko
Sa tuwing.. sa mga pagkakataon na hindi mo sinasadya
Bakit lahat na lang hindi  mo alam?
Gusto kong tumawa na lang at lumakad palayo
Pero, hindi ko kayang lumakad.. lumakad papalayo sayo
Hindi pa sa ngayon, hindi… Hindi ko kakayanin.
Di bale ng ganito, kasama ka..
Ang taong dumudugrog ng puso ko
Ang taong palagi kong inaalala
Ang taong uunahin ko, una sa sarili ko
Ang taong walang makakapantay
Masakit lang talaga tanggapin na
“I am not and never will be your PRIORITY”
Ang dami ko kasing kaagaw sayo eh
Madalas, napapatanong na lang, “naaalala kaya nya ko pag hindi kame magkasama?”
Sino nga ba ako, “girlfriend mo lang naman ako diba?”, pag magkasama tayo.
Ansakit sakit magmahal, lalo na ng taong perpekto
Minsan, mahal na mahal ka, ayaw ka bitawan,
Madalas nakahawak kasi nakasanayan, pero ang totoo…
Ano nga ba ang totoo?
Sana dumating yun araw na hindi na ko nagtatanong
walang ng luha, wala ng sakit, wala ng buntong hininga
wala ng tanong tanong
Sana pag dumating yun araw na yun,
Ikaw pa din ang kasama ko
Pero kung hindi, sana, kung nakanino man nakahawak ang mga kamay mo,
Sana masaya kayo
Yung kasiyahan na hindi ko maibigay, makita mo na sana sa kanya
Pag dumating yun tao na yun,
Bibitawan na kita, hindi kita papahirapan, pangako
Kung san ka masaya, don ka
Kung saan ka masaya, doon ako
Kahit hindi na ako ang kasama mo





I will never be good enough
And so are you
To you, it was nothing
An instinct or reflex
Kinda offensive, really
Your insensitivity is way far annoying
Can love do something about it?
I thought I knew you
Turns out you’re shedding more skin
Bite my tongue, hold breath and take a step back
Disappointed. Disappointed. Disappointed
Who are you really?
Thank you for breaking my heart
For the nth time!



via TheDailyPost

When I snap, I snap
I might slap, but I won’t
My thoughts are killing me
That soul I want to write down on Death note
I wish my eyes could see beyond
Let the truth unfold, let it.
I wonder if pain will go away
Does it ever cease?
Doubt found its place, and it’s here to stay
Don’t want to burn bridges
rather the urge to smash your entirety weighs much
I know I can’t lay a finger on you
Someday, I hope you’d trip and fall face first
I hate you, and that will never change!
What’s worse is that no one can save me from this shit.
He knows, but he doesn’t.
Is it even acceptable?







Learn to Unlearn

And the cycle goes on.
What you don’t face, will stab you
things you can’t change, let it go
open your hands, just set it free
can it be that easy?
pretend that nothing happened?
conceal it with silence
when in reality,
you struggle hard not to throw a punch!
people will never change, unless you say so
why am i in this place again?
i know where i am,
i just don’t feel …
i am slipping away, again!
one day, peace will come
be patient, my dear
hide away for now
i need to unlearn this.


Dalagindings Reunited

I miss PPGs …

focusing on the good...


This group is the very reason why I started this blog. last year on my birthday we established (LOL!) the Dalaginding Foundation. they are my co-writers on my first real work. it’s been 9 months since i left the company, and this is the very first meetup i’ve managed to come to since then. i missed shielabebe‘s despedida last July. it was Barbie‘s birthday last August and we just had to celebrate. STAR CITY!! ㄟ(“▔ ˛ƪ▔ ҂)ㄏ

I am not really in the mood for words so i would just drown you with pictures. Haha! just a few words though, i realized i missed their company. we had a lot of fun though it was a short time and though some of the park’s highlights were closed >.<


Ride to Star City (pretending like we own the van for a provincial trip nyehehe). i should mention that we watched…

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Oh Well!

The Pain Of Falling For A Guy Who Only ‘Kinda’ Likes You

“He likes you, but probably not enough.”

It is understandably hard to remove yourself from the situation after you have invested so much time and energy; it’s hard to accept things as they are. You will focus on what you want to hear and disregard all the red flags because you want the relationship to go somewhere.

You will cling to the slight glimpse of hope. You will rationalize reasons to stay in this ambiguous relationship.


hell yeah!

Falling For Someone With An Expiration Date

“I’m not in love with you, but I was falling for you. Hell, I think that I may already have.If I am still in free fall, I’m waiting, praying for a bungee cord to halt my descendance and pull me back up before I hit the bottom. If I have already fallen, I’m trying to give myself reasons why I have not; bargaining with myself, if you will.”

I came across this thoughtcatalog post and it smacked me instantly!
That “expiration date” sounds familiar. We were talking about it last time.
I am left speechless.
Even with my exaggerated busy schedule, I still find time to think about that one person who doesn’t even care to think about me, anymore.

Now that it has come to an end, there’s nothing left to do but continue existing …




Am I lost?
Or did you left?
Laughing in confusion
Smiling in pain
I’m losing sanity

I stare
skip breath
is it still beating?
can I throw it away?
this excruciating numbness

Stab me with lies
Feed me with poison
Drown me with words
Just be HERE
Don’t ever let me GO

I’m wandering, wondering and waiting
Thinking if maybe, just maybe
you smile in your sleep …


19 Things You Need To Know Before You Date A Sarcastic Girl

Not that I’m giving a hint or whatever, i just found this one hilariously true! Thought I’m really weird but turns out I’m just a normal sarcastic human being. LOLx.
It comes out naturally. I don’t mean to be MEAN. :p

Thought Catalog

Ghost WorldGhost World

1. We’re always messing with you

Don’t take it too seriously. We’re playful, like cats with laser pointers. You’re the cat and we’re the laser pointer. Or something, I don’t know. Just take the joke and throw it back, okay?

2. Mean comments are displays of affection

There’s nothing more intimate or affectionate than me calling you an asshole and kissing you afterwards, trust.

3. We remember everything

That time you tripped outside the movie theatre, that embarrassing picture of you dressed as a LAX bro on Halloween freshman year. We like to keep our joke bank fresssssh, so don’t think that anything goes unnoticed or is off limits.

4. You can make fun of us too

We can honestly take a joke, even about our appearance. It’s fun when you bite back.

5. We come off cocky, but it’s a front

We’ll say inflated things about our…

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I do! or I do?

I do or I don’t? : Wedding dilemmas

Why marry?
So simple yet hard to answer. One may end up answering “because we love each other”, which is a legit response, but the thing is, you have to analyze yourself why you want to settle down with your partner.  Love alone is not enough, cause eventually, one day it’ll fade away. Not to discourage couples out there, but this is reality. You have to dig deeper, and know that there’s more to life than love.

In defense of my article (defensive mode on), it’s not that I don’t believe in the importance of marriage, rather, I don’t understand the point why a lot are eager and are willing to move mountains just to get married, when they don’t even know how to love and value themselves.

And how about commitment and loyalty? Those who are committed rarely stay loyal, and those who are loyal tends to run away from commitment. Life is really that ironic, that you just have to laugh at it. I suggest that if you are young, or whatever your age maybe, never rush into marriage. Having a new surname or someone beside you all night long will not assure you of a happy and contented life.

Try to be independent. There’s nothing wrong with being single. Marriage is not a game that you can take start over and over again, until you reach the final stage – there’s no such thing as game over.

Be responsible with your choices.